Ehh, there is no point in holding the last post about my life.
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So nothing special happened in my summer vacation of 10th grade.
11th grade came along with AP Chem and AP US history...I got the hardest math teacher in school (59 on my first test) but I learned tons and tons from him and now I get the highest in his class! l7l
One day I needed an AP Chem question help. So I signed up to Y!A and asked my question...while waiting I wandered around the site and met the Egypt section. I renamed my account "Egyptian Kid" and posted stuff...I learned about the personalities of the different Y!A-Egypt members...they were cool guys/gals
. Soon ESD had asked a Q about "Why don't we make our own chat site?" . So I thought "Well I already have one (this forum) so I'll just tell them about it"...I posted it and soon ESD, Dal, Gaz, Sucre, Marwa, Masriya and fifi joined. They didn't know how to use the forum and I had troubles just getting them to know how to use the chat
. Anyways, they all eventually learned how to use it. I spoke with hours everyday with all of them (esp. ESD, Dal, Gaz and fifi...Marwa mainly used the forum and not the chat)...I learned
a lot about these people and their unique personalaties!
Later on (weeks later actually) steve kept on bugging me about weather I love a person on this forum and he kept on pushing me...I actually did like a person becasue I had learned from my chats that the person is loving, caring, religious (from what I could tell), funny and interesting...that's pretty much what I ever wanted in a wife...but I didn't tell Steve that.
I started debating with myself thoughts like "I isolated myself from girls, so what are you doing...maybe I should tell her...maybe it's too early to tell her as she is a bit young and might not be up to the responsibility of having a relation...maybe if I wait it'll be too late...". So after steve having bugged me that day, I messaged the person that night and while talking I got
hinted that the person liked me. I literally flipped with joy lol. I told the person that I liked her, and she told me she liked me back. This was the start.
In the few upcoming days we chatted, for hours, and the person asked me a question that attached me to her even more: she asked me if I just want to like be her friend or would I actualy want to marry her one day. Basically I couldn't believe it! She was serious, she actually wanted to enter a serious relation!! I said "YES!!", of course. I planned with her how we would meet in the future and marry etc. I thought "Wow Ahmed! You already have your whole life planned out!!" and I was so happy.
For many days and weeks later we had gotten so used to each other! I mean I told the person things that I would NEVER tell a person besides someone I
REALLY love! My love for the person grew by the day (no joke walahy). Proof of that is that literraly I had even isolated myself from girls (like school for example) since talking with them would give me the feeling of guilt for cheating on her...yeah, the love level was
that high.
The person also told me things that she would probably never tell anyone besides the one she loved, but I noticed she would say soemthing completly different when she would post somewhere else...I asked her "why?" and she said "what's important is what I write to you, not what I write elsewhere"...I thought that was ok and agreed.
Soon we had an argurment/debate about politics and that was it...she hadn't sent me a message in 3-4 days...soemthing was obviously wrong. I asked her "Are you ending everything?" and she replied saying "Yes, but I still want to be friends". It's like someone came and told me "Ahmed, so and so died" I couldn't believe it. I really couldn't, I went in a sort of "denial" stage. Besides this I couldn't imagine that this person would even imagine be being her "friend" after she ended eveything like that (so abruptly and short lived (only 1.5 months))...IMO it seemed even inhuman to ask me to "continue being a freind". Would you befriend the person that killed you? I told the person to make me hate her so I wouldn't have the pain of it ending and all, but she refused, she wanted me to be her freind, nothing more. I thought I would just leave the place forum but the forum would die....so instead I thought I would just try to ignore the person, till I forget.
Even though the person didn't realize, she was making me hate her, by continuing her life (in front of me anyways) as if nothing happpened at all (I could tell from her posts). As if we were playing a game and she got tired and withdrew.
Soon the person herself, I guess she got mad at me for ignoring her and she started ignoring me and left.
I personally believed that if an argument was able to break a relation like that, then it was never love. I don't know what to call it. It's sad.
And here I am
Any questions?
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