I guess I've just been down a lot more lately. I mean I haven't been on the computer as much, I usually stay in my room crying. My girlfriend came up for Thanksgiving. We had a really good time together, but I guess I went too fast for her. She didn't want to go beyond making out and apparently I'm really grabby when I'm asleep O.o The next day she told me that she thinks she's straight though, so I guess she's probably not into me. I really wish I was a guy more than ever, then everything would be so much easier for me. She's going to leave tomorrow morning back to where she lives which is pretty...

Okay, I have a lot of pics but they're like REALLY old. So I guess I'll post the most recent one, which is still pretty old but still. I have a lot of new pics on my cell phone but it doesnt hook up to facebook or anything and I don't have a sim card yet so I can't put them on the computer. Here she is though:

Okay but seriously... I'm sick of jumping back and forth from this forum. I'm gonna try harder to be more active... Anyways. I'm so glad it's the weekend. I'm really sick of my school. I'm getting bullied... Not by the girls. By 2 guys. Apparently somehow it got out that I'm bi so I get bullied a lot and instead of getting called emofag I just get called happy person now. There's a few guys who like to kick me too. I dunno why though. The girls at my school aren't jerks to me, they just won't talk to me. It's a really small school too, less than 200 middle schoolers there. My sister tells me to...

Okay, so I got there a few minutes late. It was theatre history 1. So i awkwardly walked in the classroom and got a chair and got a lot of stares. i got a few compliments on my epictastic pokemon shirt. and my new glasses. i think i put on too much eyeliner... let's see... i had some pocky in my lunch today. it was good, what else? oh, i have this really cute japanese notebook with a cute cat on it and i started drawing on it and a boy pointed at the neko and said "what on earth is that?" i glared at him and said "kawaii neko desu". i hung up my envy pictures and envy magnet in my locker. and i...

im gonna blog my first day of 8th grade, bro.

okay so im gonna list my favourite shows with cute/hot girls and post a pic of my favourite one in each show

lets see...

yuru yuri: toshino kyouko


madoka magica: homura akemi


Fullmetal alchemist and fullmetal alchemist brotherhood: Lust

I made my first friend irl in like 2 years. My other friend moved. My new friend's name is Megan. She looks like

she likes anime and metal bands and 80s rock like me! Today she invited me to join her hand holding yard and we ran around the property yelling at people to join us :3 I feel like I finally belong somewhere. im so happy! but sadly she's gonna go to a different high school next year and i probably wont be seeing her again

and its true every, every word of it.

wow... i thought you'd believe me when I told you she was bullying me instead, you defend her. whatever. just. just dont talk to me. im suicidal enough. you don't even believe your own girlfriend/wife when he tells you that she's been bullied? whatever. just. im gonna go in my room now and cry because you cant even trust me when i say that a girl said some stuff that really crushed me. no, i cant my parents will notice me and come in there. but seriously, why believe her over me? because your friends do? she put me through a lot and you just decide...

I'm having my first real exams ever and its gonna be really hard because I've never done anything like this before so I actually have to study for once. Wish me luck.

So you may know that I have a facebook roleplay as Envy... And there's this Edward Elric (i dont care that they're brothers!) that I've been roleplaying for a while with. He's funny and kind, and I want us to date. I've known him for a long time, and he's the only one that I can really open up to. But... he likes another girl. But he asked me to be friends with benefits so I have no idea how this will turn out.

Super religious people who try to get me to become their religion

Homophobics.

Preps.

Anime haters.

People who think their views are the only right ones and don't consider anyone elses.


Sadly I live with my family who is all 5 of them I wish I had a cool family who respected my religion and anime watching and didn't hate gays...

I was gonna send my rp buddy a message that said "come here little boi, let me teach you something new" to joke and sound like this hooker from a video game (u dont wanna know the title)....I accidently sent it to ahmed over the chat thing. I feel so embarrasssed I quickly logged off and I hope he didn't see it!

At least now I can try some graphics stuff now that I've got a tablet (from my mommy <3 so I hope I can learn to do some cool artwork stuff.

For the first time this year, I'm going with a friend to get pizza and see a movie! I mean I've never done anything with a friend this year at all! I can't wait! :3

So here are the FMA kitties that are up for adoption:

My dad is working from 6am to 9pm, my mom is sick vomiting, now shes on the couch yelling at me and my sisters calling us horrible lazy slobs while we're frantically cleaning the kitchen tryint to please her while she's crying plus I had to miss school today to take care of my mom at least she fell asleep. im scared

I spend 6 hours on this Fullmetal Alchemist computer game! here's what happened if u wanna know: (edward elric became Pride and Envy was buddy buddy with him) but anyways, the point is that if I can spend that long of a game becausee of anime/fma/envy? What could suck me in for the rest of my life? I don't wanna be some nerd living in the bottom of my parent's basement playing world of warcraft all day! Am I overreacting? Is it normal to spend that much time on the computer just clicking and playing a fighting game? Or maybe it's because of my love? Or maybe it's just because I like action? But...

So first I had to go to this damn physical therapist for some OCD and Anxiety crap. So she made me dance and do the grapevine and other awkward stuff. Then my parents made me go to this youth group (I HATE CHURCH!) with a bunch of snoobby gils who giggled about the stupidest things. Then my sister asked me if I liked them, I said no, so she started pulling some crap about how no one likes me and thinks I'm a freak for watching anime... Man, I need some nerdy friends irl so we can roleplay and escape all this bullcrap.

if u dont like him, then dont read this!



Okay, so I was on facebook, and i added a bunch of ppl roleplaying as envy and they all blocked me cuz they hate fangirls rofl... i guess if he were real, hed probably kill me. but of course if he were real then id be fake. and id be dead. and it would be real. but if it were real, then would this world be over? would society die? wait, im confused now. your thoughts?

I have this little Envy doll and I like to kiss it everyday and do stuff to it. This is what it looks like. Is it weird to kiss a doll of someone that u like?

thanks for making my dad ahmed, that feminist that envy was, that was too funny lolz cu it was sooo far fetched (facebook update: my sister hacked my account and wrote on my wall "I am now certain that envy is a girl." lol)

Why I hate Envy so much: http://www.sodahead.com/scarr/media/

I used this analizer on fb to see the words i use the most.
the results:
Used the most times: Envy
Used 7 times: Lol
Used 7 times: Love
Used 6 times: Fullmetal
Used 6 times: Anime
Used 5 times: Allison
Used 5 times: Really
Used 5 times: Hate
Used 5 times: Dont
Used 5 times: Alchemist
Used 5 times: Yes
Used 5 times: Watching
Used 4 times: Star
Used 4 times: Any
Used 4 times: Sister
Used 4 times: Gir
Used 4 times: Awesome
Used 4 times: Fma
Used 4 times: Pic
Used 3 times: Again
Used 3 times:...

NOT IN ANY ORDER

1. PS3
2. 2. GAMES FOR PS3
3. fun WAR games, like modern warfare, halo, call of duty 4 black ops,
4. NOT happy bunny kitten paint rainbow town flowers go happy
5. hot topic gift card
6. (online) envy figurine http://www.gkworld.com/product/GKW49560/Full-Metal-Alchemist-Trading-Arts-Envy-Figure.html?meta=GBASE&metacpg=GKW49560&utm_source=gbase&utm_medium=CPC&utm_content=&utm_campaign=GKW49560...

found out what envy's saying
"can't search if you're dead"