(Better to read while listening to this: https://youtu.be/F4jdLygR-dI?t=46m11s )
Do you guys remember when the golden age of this forum was?
It was when we had all those girls - Egyptian Gazelle, Fifi, Marwa, Daloo3a.
They kind of complimented us on this forum. And they helped Steve say.
I'm kind of the reason why they left, which ultimately lead to the downfall of this forum.
For you see, I was young and naive 4 years ago (times flies huh). I was in an online relationship with Egyptian Gazelle. For ~3-4 months. I meant it to be serious. Like we would get to know each other IRL and get married etc. But yeah, I was a junior in HS, pretty foolish. And was first time with a girl. Steve knew. Gazelle abruptly ended this relationship. I wanted to know why. Apparently Steve knew. I asked him to tell me why, but he said this is a secret, so that got me angry and it severed our relationship at the time. I presume that Gazelle let Daloo3a know, and so Daloo3a, who went on to make a new forum, was on her side. And needless to say, the relationship between gazelle and I were severed when she broke the relationship with me.
Fifi apparently liked me. But at the time gaz and I were in a relationship, and so I shunned fifi down. Which severed the relationship between fifi and I. When this whole mistake ended we lost 4 members.
As for Marwa, I allowed a political argument to get the best of me, and after trashing her...she obviously left. (you all saw this one live)
So I guess you guys can say, I killed my own forum with my own hands.
Maybe if I hadn't done all of that, this forum might've been different.
Now I'm not encouraging the death of the forum. But I'm acknowledging reality.
I can't single handedly prolong the forum's life due to my life responsibilities. I can't make new topics as often as I used to. And this was always a problem with this forum, it was too dependent on me -the admin- to make it going. Never really got any major help from anyone else - except maybe Marwa, she did a lot though, Ill admit that. And so it seems to be fated that the forum's end will come with my decrease in activity.
I will say one thing though. I'll assure I'm the last one that leaves this forum (I'll see that a week passes and I'm the only one that logs in). And then I'll delete it psychically, as its memories -good and bad- stays within all of our memories.
(Or I'll delete everything on the forum and rebuild it from scratch with a new focus, new community)