I like my new beard style
And anyways. You strive for love. You look for it everywhere and for quite a few years you found it in your religion. You managed to distract yourself from actually loving someone other than your family by burying yourself in religion and defending it. Then, recently, you've subconsciously had enough. Religion isn't enough for you, which is why you started having feeling for the girl. When you started to feel things getting shaky, whether consciously or not, you started looking for a back up. That's when you created a "joke." It was your mind creating a manifestation of what it wanted. When it came to the break up, you couldn't pretend anymore. You were alone. That's when you came onto this forums to ask for help, you couldn't deal with it anymore because more likely than not, she was one of your only crushes or loves.
And anyways. You strive for love. You look for it everywhere and for quite a few years you found it in your religion. You managed to distract yourself from actually loving someone other than your family by burying yourself in religion and defending it. Then, recently, you've subconsciously had enough. Religion isn't enough for you, which is why you started having feeling for the girl. When you started to feel things getting shaky, whether consciously or not, you started looking for a back up. That's when you created a "joke." It was your mind creating a manifestation of what it wanted. When it came to the break up, you couldn't pretend anymore. You were alone. That's when you came onto this forums to ask for help, you couldn't deal with it anymore because more likely than not, she was one of your only crushes or loves.